Two years ago logan cried that someone was going to hurt him and we had to leave. He cried until we left the auditorium. He was so afraid. It broke my heart in so many ways. I was trying to protect him from all the pain, but he was deeply in it. He cried for weeks after every time he left me.
We have spent the last two years trying to build his sense of security. Last year he stayed in the auditorium but would not go on stage. He has become afraid of so much. The last month he has been telling me that he can't wait for the Holiday show. I was not going to get excited until he was on the stage.
He was so excited to sit with his friends. Ava skipped on stage in her beautiful pink part dress and crystal hair bows that Gaga made her. Logan was with his friends dancing and singing his heart out. He looked so grown up in his button up and cords. They were smiling. It was fantastic. Ava had her hands in her pockets swinging her dress around. They were so happy. I was so proud.
It took us so long but he was so amazing. I teared up but could not cry. It was in public. It is these moments that I realize how much he lost. We are so lucky to have the time to help him find his way back to good. I am so lucky. I am so insanely lucky.
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